What irks and saddens me most though, is how small my world has become. My immediate family, a sister, a long-distance crafting buddy [weekly skype dates] and my health care professionals. These are the people I see.
I absolutely dread running into anyone that knew me "before I got sick". Ugh. The weight gain, the lack of mobility, my drunken gait [vertigo, not booze], the ravages of my medication that show on my skin and hair.
Urocyon's Jaunts: "IN TODAY'S SOCIETY, CHRONIC ILLNESS IS VIEWED AS A PERSONAL FAILING › When I recently read the phrase, “I’m embarrassed to be sick,” it made my stomach clench and my breath catch. ... a reluctance to be seen or even talk to people–especially those that knew me before I became chronically ill. ... ... In our competitive society, chronic infirmity or illness is viewed as a personal failing rather than the random stroke of fate that it is. "
'via Blog this'
Thank goodness for the internet. My connection to the world, news, entertainment. I visit on blogs like I used to go for coffee. I don't have to excuse my looks. Hell, I don't even have to be showered and dressed! Plus, if I'm awake at 3am, my "pals" on the internet are too. Thanks for being there internet.